The Space of Suppression

Everyone has a spark unique to their soul, and regardless of whether you know the person or not, it’s very easy to tell whether that spark is there. Often, this dazzling display that shine’s through someone’s personality is, in some instances, supressed, denied, or simply withheld from illuminating the best version of themselves because of present circumstances, unbalanced emotions, or due to the time and place in their lives. This feeling of isolation is the suppression of one’s heart, and its ability to inject pure passion into their everyday reality. As an outsider looking in, it can be very difficult to witness – not just in the lives of others but also through ourselves.

Ever since I can remember I have been working on strengthening my throat chakra. As a child I was afraid to speak too loudly and became so nervous that when I would go to speak, words would simply be mouthed but not be heard. Years later, I then only spoke when it was absolutely necessary, voicing a limited number of words but with profound instinct to navigate a daunting conversation appropriately. At some point I committed numerous acts of self-betrayal by refraining from speaking up about significantly important issues that directly affected my health, and to my own detriment, caused an excess amount of pain in the process. Now as I continue to learn and practice my communication skills through verbal speech, I recognise that while some healing has occurred, there is still ample opportunity to honour the expansion of my heart with my words.

Today I found myself being verbally abused by an individual on the phone. While this is nothing new, when I fused my speech with my soul spark energy, I recognised a greater number of options that might remedy the situation. Providing a detailed change of action that would increase communication efficiency, future problems would be completely avoided altogether. In an ideal world, the story would end here, however the space of suppression on the receiver’s end widened the gap of my honesty. This individual was taken back by the strength I harnessed by tuning into my heart’s natural warmth, and matched it with an overload of aggression, intended to shut down my optimistic resolve. I recognised their words were being intentionally used to ignite a desired power trip, and quickly diverted the conversation to protect my precious heart energy as a replenishing resource to my vitality. Being human, I struggled to fully release this sense of confusion immediately, recognising instead, my need for additional communication studies because of this incident.

Existing in the space of suppression is disheartening, as one is actively denying a part of their soul’s learning experience. Similar to a type of depression, this numbness can affect the everyday outlook for an individual. A colleague may feel limited by their career opportunities due to a change of role, but this lack of soul spark can generate a domino effect in their personal lives creating a sense of hopelessness. Without appropriate measures such as the practice of gratitude, the expansion of happiness by engaging in joyous activities, and maintaining fulfilling social connections, this single act of suppression can cause defeat across all areas of life.

If a space of suppression were to exist, in total honesty – I think it would look like something very ordinary. Anyone who has ever people-watched will understand the appeal of lingering in a public space and noting a steady stream of individuals that do not expand their heart energy. These individuals may rush from place to place, drop their head into their shoulders, divert their eyes, or fail to notice anything outside their immediate vision. Existence in this space of suppression is not healthy, for it limits the possibilities of generating anything worthwhile. As the saying goes, fear is the biggest freezer, and in a sense, this superficiality of being small does not serve the world.

The bridge between the spark of the soul, the innocence of the heart, and the gentleness of the voice is still a blueprint in history. To grasp the concept and practice it willingly and daily as part of a means to mindful evolution is not for the faint hearted. One may transcend all odds alone on a mountaintop for 20 years, but return to a city and become confronted by endless instances of tension from daily interactions. The key lies in the memories created in the present moment, and our ability to look back on the past with a sensation of how well we grew from that point in time. For me, my markers in life continually shift, but I know whether I need to top up my soul spark based on how I feel at the end of the day. In the meantime, I recommend the following positive affirmation to release the burden of suppression as a space of existence: “When I fuse my words with the true brightness of my soul, I can easily speak my inner truth.”